an unexpected loss
the beginning of 2024 has not been the best.
After the year had changed I was feeling hopeful and exited, that was until a five days ago. It was an ordinary Thursday, I received a message from my mom telling me that someone from my dads side had passed away. Every grief is different,some are incredibly painful and others a bit easier depending on how close you were. we were not super close but close enough that i remember us visiting her when i was young. we had not seen each other in the past few years, but besides this hearing about someones passing is never easy. it is a reminder that life does not last forever and it forces you face to face with your beliefs about death. I have been walking hand in hand with grief again. Someone ones said that “grief is love with no place to go” This resonated with me.
How to cope during difficult times?
the simple answer is following a daily routine. Luckily i was already doing a 30 day yoga journey before i got the news. Showing up to my yoga mat every single day has brought me a sense of safety. Writing poetry has helped me to better process my emotions.
These last few days have been full of mixed emotions. the evening after the news i cried for a few hours because all the memories of the previous losses came up as well. I was also shedding more tears on Friday. I spend the weekend with my friends and we went to see a movie.
On Tuesday, I was super tired and yesterday I did not feel like wanting to have small talk with anyone at work. After work I did show up to our theater practice, It was fun meeting with the group again.
The grief this time is not as overwhelming as it was when my grandparents passed, but i am not feeling great. Quite understandably so. I wanted to let you know what happened in case I need to take a break from writing this blog. it may or may not happen depending on how i feel.
Anyways, i hope that the first few weeks of 2024 have been treating you well. ❤
