Self compassion after a panic attack.
I had an unexpected panic attack yesterday, it happened at work due to too many things happening at the same time and causing my body to froze. I have been fortunate to not have any mature ones for quite awhile. So it felt momentarily like i failed to keep myself together and stop this from happening. When actually panic attacks are completely out of our control, we cant control our automatic reactions very well and there is not really a need for it either.
I was able to let others know what was going on and took a little break from working. Everyone was super understanding but i actually felt little embarrassed due to “causing a scene” and taking my instructors time away for more important things as she was helping me to calm down. There is no need so feel ashamed of having a mental illness but it feels devastating when symptoms return after you think that everything is under control again. I was tired rest of the evening because of this panic attack. I`m learning to show self compassion after these situations and speaking to myself as i would speak to a friend in a similar situation. I was lucky to have people there to help and give me time to calm down.
I do not think that anybody is created to multitask but my mind cant handle multiple instructions at all, it causes me to froze and to be unable to function at all. I am not afraid of my panic attacks anymore but it is not making them comfortable by any means. My body felt a bit restless yesterday morning so i was not that surprised when this happened. Also resisting the panic attack probably made everything way worse. I`m looking forward so speaking with a psychiatrist about everything to see what they suggest treatment wise. all tho i am still not 100% sure about the medication as an option, i need to get more information from them first. in order to make a decision.
dealing with a panic disorder can feel exhausting but i will get tru this! Hopefully all of you have had great week so far. ❤
